So

staying home (or more just being home alone, like every time my family leaves I get the feeling) gives me the urge to cut again. I haven't even thought about it in months, but lately I just feel like devouring myself. 

I won't. I can't. I'm not able to hide it from everyone, and he wouldn't tolerate that sort of shit. He'd be gone.  And losing him is the last thing I intend to do.

And no one bothered to think of me for Canada Day celebrations. I get to stay home with my parents and listen to the idiots across the street with their fire crackers. woo.

Blah

I have the dumbest blog ever.

I never have anything worth while or interesting to say, so I guess I just won't. 

Anyway, I'm off to limp my way to work.

woo.

I'll do my crying in the rain.

Rain drops falling from Heaven

Could never wash away my mysery.

Since we're not together, 

I pray for stormy weather

To hide these tears I hope you'll never see.

Some day when my crying's done

I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun

I may be a fool, but 'til then, Darling, 

you'll never see me complain.

I'll do my crying in the rain. 

(Crying in the Rain - the Everly Brothers)

I think these lyrics are just wonderful.

I don't feel this way by any means.

Obviously, because I'm happy as can be, and I haven't cried in so long for any reason other than watching a sad movie or show on TV. 

Also, I'm with him, and above all else right now, that's really all I could hope for. 

Now let's go party with the Doobie Brothers, shall we?

By The Way

I'm wonderful.

In the sense that I feel wonderful, not in the sense that my head is as big as a basketball.

And no, I did not just have an orgasm.

Wurk it.

So. It has been forever, but I've been crazy busy working. I finally have a chance to breathe, and kick off my shoes, and just sit back. WOO!!

As far as all of that goes...I like my job, it will do for now. The people there are nice, and so far I've been doing really well. Marcel (one of the head cashiers) complimented me yesterday saying that he'd assumed I'd been on cash before since I'd caught on so fast there. 

Um...yeah. I'm pretty happy about everything right now, other than the dissonance between the family members in this house. 

It's nice to finally be able to smile just because, and to have a reason at the same time. It's about effing time.

Palma

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Just a few easy steps!

visit www.palmacollection.com

pick the jewelry you want

at time of purchase, enter the coupon code: alliebee

and receive 10% off!!!  (you will also be supporting my debut in the industry!)

best part of my day.

Allie Pence I put Lix in a pot and stewwed him. He's for lunch.

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 Allison Brown at 10:30am April 24

no you didn't. he's right here.

 Allie Pence at 10:31am April 24

No I did. I replaced Lix with a fake Lix.

 Allison Brown at 10:33am April 24

no you didn't. there is only one Lix.

 Allie Pence at 10:33am April 24

The real Lix said my vag. is better anyway.

 Allison Brown at 10:37am April 24

it is not!!!! yours ITCHES!!! Lix would ever say that. ever. EVER.

 Allie Pence at 10:38am April 24

Mine does not itch. My vag is totally better than yours, my chesticles are better too.

 Allison Brown at 10:41am April 24

nuh uh. it itches when it's not hairy and therefore mine is better. you even said so last night. 
and your chesticles are only better when they're in hot pink sexy bra. mine are better the rest of the time.

 Allie Pence at 10:42am April 24

Mine are better all the time. The sexy bra just makes them that much more better that than they already are.

 Allison Brown at 10:45am April 24

you're totally wrong.
you're a big lesbo. sleeping with a girl.
and a big meany butt for trying to steal Lix.

 Allie Pence at 10:46am April 24

I'm actually sleeping with a girl panda! 
I didn't try to steal him, I just stole Lix.

 Allison Brown at 10:48am April 24

BESTIALITY!!! that's a sin. and you will be condemned by the church for your actions. 
oh yeah? what kind teddy is her? what are his clothes?

 Allie Pence at 10:51am April 24

Lix has a tie. 

I sure there are plenty of other reasons the church will condemn me. I'm not worried.

 Allison Brown at 10:52am April 24

NO he has a bow. not a tie. sheesh. YOU TOOK SYDNEY.

 Allie Pence at 10:53am April 24

hahahaha.

 Allie Pence at 10:55am April 24

Whos Sydney? is she cute? Will she mate with Liz and give me little Lizzies'?

 Allison Brown at 10:55am April 24

wrong teddy.
i'm ok with you stewing Sydney. He's a bad snuggle bear anyway.

 Allie Pence at 10:59am April 24

Ohhh It'll mate with Liz?

 Allison Brown at 10:59am April 24

sydney is a boy. he has a little mouth, but is a creamy colour. so they would make good little lizzies

 Allie Pence at 11:00am April 24

WEEEEEEEEEE!. We can sell the extras and split the profits?

 Allison Brown at 11:02am April 24

ok. that works. but he's like 20. which is more like 400 in teddy years. so he doesn't have the greatest stamina. OH and his left arm is falling off, and his head a little bit. so just tell her she has to be on top and to be careful. no hair pulling or weird bending.

 Allie Pence at 11:05am April 24

So will they have deformed babies? I don't want my liz to have deformed babies.

 Allison Brown at 11:09am April 24

they will ONLY be deformed when they get old.

 Allie Pence at 12:26pm April 24

i don't want difformed panda babies.

 Allison Brown at 3:49pm April 24

they won't be.they won't be panda babies. they will be mixed babies and they will be beautiful.

 Allie Pence at 3:51pm April 24

ok. As long as they're beautiful.

 Allison Brown at 3:52pm April 24

yes.